Monday, April 29, 2013

A Nightmare Solved


When I have disturbing dreams they fall into two categories: the naked dream and the I forgot to go to class/do my homework dream.

Interestingly, when I was younger I always woke up before finding a solution to my dream’s dilemma; but now while in the crisis of the sleep cycle I often manage to solve it--either by finding the time to get the homework done/study/arrive on time or procuring clothing to cover my private parts.

And in last night’s dream I found myself both naked and late to school while in the company of my neighbor, my best friend, and a not-so-best friend. I can only assume that what prompted this imagining was the decision to not post a “thought” today. I must have felt shame over not having completed my “homework.” But before I woke up from my nightmare my mind found some handkerchiefs on a shelf and tied them to make a halter-top and skirt. And then a taxi showed up so I did not have to walk to class. I was no longer naked nor would I be late.

And when I prepared my morning coffee I thought hmm maybe  that dream was telling me something: I am indeed in control of my guilt and shame.

Because sometimes our only obstacle is ourselves. All we need to do is get out of our own way. We always hold the solution if we listen to what is inside.

And hopefully tonight I will dream of flying—my favorite dream. It is what my mind imagines when I feel complete and in charge--which is what I am. Because I am no longer naked or late to class—my problem is solved--and your reading this post is proof of this.

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